Fairy Tales

Most women are turned on by a man's appearance, the poetry of his words, or perceived personality, but half of them can't match a real man's mind with their own thinking...they wouldn't look beneath the surface of words & know how to stimulate the mind of a man who thinks. They wouldn't be patient enough to even dig in their own minds & know what they really like about the man or how to hold a real man's attention without their looks.
They want to be a part of a cheap, cheesy romance novel instead of the leading lady in a never-ending story: ...til death do we part.
Women forget what the "Princesses" with happy endings go through before they meet their sweet Prince. They rush to a hotel with a "suite prince" & end up in a dungeon of disgust because of lust. Fairy tales often include drama & conflict before you get to "and they lived happily ever after."
We ask the men what turns them on or what makes a woman appealing to them. They give us their answers & then the female turns around & says "well the man for me will accept me as I am!" THAT'S WHY YOU DON'T HAVE A MAN, NOW!
My heart really breaks for my sisters who think they have it so together, & who blame extrinsic circumstances when what they suffer from is internal conflict. 

Angel 7/25/12

YOU CAN'T HANDLE THE TRUTH

There's something terribly wrong when you have a large group of attractive, employed, single adults and no one can make a love connection. Of course, it's none of the singles fault they're single. Men only want sex & don't know how to treat women anymore. Women want to much, complain too much, and don't know how to take care of home & her man. Both sides sling poo & everyone is left stinking.
You attract what you are or what you think. Your mate is your mirror. Something about you is reflected in the type of people you attract, or the ones you're not attracting. 

I hate that most of my brothers & sisters don't want to hear what could help them. It's like they like being single. I don't know why we can't come together, listen to & accommodate the needs of our lovers, because we really do love each other. In spite of being scarred, underneath being scared, all we have to do is communicate & cooperate. We've gotten spoiled in this instant, do-it-if-it-feels-good, anything goes & it's-all-about-me society. We've gone through another sexual revolution yet many are still sexually frustrated because they're oversexed & have cum for brain fluid, or they are sexed less than they desire due to being single.
There's something wrong and no one wants to listen because YOU CAN'T HANDLE THE TRUTH!
People just don't know anymore how to build & be in a relationship, and the benefits of it.

Crazy

It's a crazy emotional week for me...having to deal with projects ending is always emotional & lonely, but I got a major high before the low having my niece & her friends come to the play closing, & drinking & laughing w/them for two days; then I dealt w/some rejection - OUCH, my ego, lol - & then today I learned of the death of a close family friend, & the passing of a college acquaintance with who I share a legal name. It happens in threes so...

It's been one of those weeks I can't put my finger on & I even feel it in the physical, one of those feelings I've not felt in so long that I forgot it was the sign of chaos. I try to remove myself from or limit social interactions with people who might sense but not understand my 'off behavior'. However, it's a good chaos. I have some adjusting & accepting to do. I have moves to make. I have roles to play.
Remember the next time someone is acting strangely to you, rather than throw out an accusation regarding their behavior, realize that something deeper is going on within them.
 
Thank you, God, for helping me get to know myself, and because I know you I never fret or fear.

Sometimes you can't agree to agree to disagree.

Sometimes you both just know that only you right this time.

I stopped trying to understand you a long time ago. (laughing) I wanted to save you so badly. (shaking my head) I have so much love & concern for you, & wanted to be there for you when you made wrong choices, bad decisions & accepted less than you deserved. You were there for me so many times, rescuing me I just wanted to be the same to you sometimes; that's what love & friendship is about. Just as much as you, I wanted to be the hero sometimes, too. But we couldn't play that out because that would change the whole story: Never were you going to play the victim. Maybe even sometimes the villain, but otherwise the hero & not the captured. Caught by the consequences of behavior that you know better than. INSANE What did you think? What do I think? You know. Cause you think I'm who you talk about & me, I think you're the one.
We're both the same. We both want the same thing. We both need the same thing. That's love & neither of us will let the other give it.

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