Sometimes

Sometimes you want understanding and sometimes you don't even care. 
Sometimes you have it and other times it comes seemingly from nowhere. 
Sometimes you want to be alone and then sometimes you want someone to be there. 
Sometimes you can accept whatever comes your way, but sometimes things just don't seem fair.
Sometimes you want to quit but then you're almost there. 
Sometimes you're forced to stop and you feel like you're stripped bare.
Sometimes you think you've made it and there's one more stair. 
Sometimes this is how I feel and I just wanted to share.

Judgment Day is Everyday

As a children of God who want to live correctly in the eyes of the Divine, we must realize that we don't have to please people, nor do they us. We must daily renew and align ourselves. We should maintain a connection to our source throughout each day to stay in alignment. Our Heavenly Supreme is the only approval we need. Our obedience to God and the Holy Spirit is all that matters. That Spirit is inside each of us. Prayer and meditation are required for the connection.

We are all blessed with gifts and talents with which to do our assigned service. If you don't use the gift you aren't being obedient and you could lose the gift, but God is a God of many chances. We often let what others think or feel dictate how we use our gifts. God's righteous judgment is all that matters. God made us, God understands us, and we need to look for God in everything. If we don't see God, we need to represent God in that situation or look away. But let's not be quick to judge. Let us be discerning. Let us not think we know the whole story. Let us not worry about what others think. God is always at work. If God tells you to do something, be obedient and let the Divine perfect you. It may look crazy to others. It may look crazy to you. It may be a test and if so we know God will provide a ram in bush. Let us not grow weary in doing good. 
Remember this note: We must serve each other to please God, not please each other to serve God.

"Don't Be A Hard Rock When You Really Are A Gem"

I remember feeling really mistreated growing up. I never felt like I fit anywhere. I felt like that dull rock you can find on the side of any road, but I knew I was more than that no matter who believed it. Fast forward to young adult life which was a struggle in itself without the added childhood stigma that grew up with me. Inside was a great fight between who I looked like I was and what I really was to be. Without any real work ethic, experience, or a healthy mental state I started out learning how to maintain my own with an apartment in the projects. Now that's when I saw who I really was...in the women who were a lot like me. Some of us were working on bettering ourselves and getting out of there. Others possessed beauty and talent just the same, but didn't think they could do any better. Boy did I shine amongst some of those rocks. That's what makes it so easy for some to stay. They look really good around of bunch of people who are never going to go anywhere, aren't going to try to do any better or get anything more. But I wasn't comfortable shining amongst of bunch of dull rocks, because in the end, if I stayed there just because it was easy, I was still around too many dull rocks. Now don't get me wrong, please. Everyone has a different case and there are some who only sleep there because that's what they can afford. They may have too many children with no daddy but they leave for work and they dress themselves and their children neatly and respectably and get out everyday getting exposure to A Different World. Those people don't stay there forever. They have too much pride in what God made them to be to settle, no matter how long it takes to leave. I, like them would rather not shine there, but get out and observe the diamonds and how they stay polished and shine because on any day, I'd rather blend in with precious gems, than settle for just standing out amongst a bunch of unpolished rocks that just get kicked around by the system.