I remember feeling really mistreated growing up. I never felt like I fit anywhere. I felt like that dull rock you can find on the side of any road, but I knew I was more than that no matter who believed it. Fast forward to young adult life which was a struggle in itself without the added childhood stigma that grew up with me. Inside was a great fight between who I looked like I was and what I really was to be. Without any real work ethic, experience, or a healthy mental state I started out learning how to maintain my own with an apartment in the projects. Now that's when I saw who I really was...in the women who were a lot like me. Some of us were working on bettering ourselves and getting out of there. Others possessed beauty and talent just the same, but didn't think they could do any better. Boy did I shine amongst some of those rocks. That's what makes it so easy for some to stay. They look really good around of bunch of people who are never going to go anywhere, aren't going to try to do any better or get anything more. But I wasn't comfortable shining amongst of bunch of dull rocks, because in the end, if I stayed there just because it was easy, I was still around too many dull rocks. Now don't get me wrong, please. Everyone has a different case and there are some who only sleep there because that's what they can afford. They may have too many children with no daddy but they leave for work and they dress themselves and their children neatly and respectably and get out everyday getting exposure to A Different World. Those people don't stay there forever. They have too much pride in what God made them to be to settle, no matter how long it takes to leave. I, like them would rather not shine there, but get out and observe the diamonds and how they stay polished and shine because on any day, I'd rather blend in with precious gems, than settle for just standing out amongst a bunch of unpolished rocks that just get kicked around by the system.
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