Absotive Posilutes!

I'm so in awe of where God has me in life right now. I don't even understand it, but I'm going with it. I trust Him. It doesn't make since to me and it doesn't have to. Once I saw the saying, "Don't try to understand me. Just love me!" That's really how I have to look at Our Father, right now. I love Him, I trust Him, I thank Him for loving me in all my imperfection and being just to forgive me of my worldly ways when I slip into them.
I sometimes think I'm in the wrong place, and God makes it so that I've completely fit in. I'm sometimes I feel like I'm off-schedule, and then I'm reminded that He's an on-time God.
He's the author and finisher of my faith. He, who begins a good work in us, sees it through unto completion.

I'm Jessica Croley - a writer, performer, director and producer!

I love being in the company of talented performing artists who are secure enough with themselves to respect and love other talented and respectful artists. I kind of wish I'd grown up in the company of like individuals, but I know everything happens for a reason and I trust that now is when I'm supposed to be with them. I love that I'm not treated like the 'old babe' in the group. I'm loved and respected, sometimes even doted on. I love how my son is embraced and cared for by the group!
Put on your shades, all who care to join us - WE are the future of Hollywood and Broadway! I'll see you all at the award shows and other industry events in the future.
PRAISE GOD!
I'm Jess...an Angel

I MISS TALKING TO YOU HERE

BEST VALEN---- SINGLE’S AWARENESS DAY EVER with my church family! …even if all the lovers did have me blubbering. I’m just blessed to be able to be happy for people who are in love when I’m not. Excuse me, I need a tissue.
CONGRATS TO BEN & KRISTEN! CONGRATS TO JOEL AND BERN ON 1st V-day AS HUSBAND AND WIFE!
I wasn’t sure how I was going to make it through the day, and believe me, it was hard getting started. I felt yucky before I left the house and by the time I got to church and our Messianic Jewish Pastor Shawn sang to his wife a song he’d written for her, I was in tears. Not even just because of single awareness day. I’ve been without a car and now that I’ve found one, I impatiently did an e-check which created a delay in the payment being processed…even though the money was taken out of my account the next day. So now the seller has to protect himself and not turn over the car yet, which is going to even further delay delivery because the car is coming from out-of-state. Sigh. Add to that time having to get a smog test, and a DMV check on my one day off a week…I’ll be mobile again hopefully by mid-March. Well, Single Awareness day ended up great. Me and my sweetie, and some of our church family dined together at one of my favorite eateries - “IN & OUT”. Afterwards we ended the evening at the Griffith Observatory. MARVELOUS, literally! I fell asleep watching Mos Def’s great performance in “Something the Lord Made”.
I think that most of us know, even when we aren’t consciously aware, that the struggles we continue to have are the things with which we continually struggle. The challenges presented to us on a regular basis allow us exercise in an area where we need strengthening the most. I continue to need exercise in practicing patience.
I woke up early Monday morning and moved my TV away from the wall and disconnected all my electronics so that DirecTV could bring my upgraded equipment and connect my stuff to my new HDTV. Those children of God cancelled my appointment but failed to cancel notification and confirmation of said appointment. By 10 am I decided not to wait until the end of the window, and called them. Woosah…goos-fraba… All this was just another test of my patience. Praise God I’ve got rehearsal and performances every night this week since I won’t have any television til next week, and then TV can keep me company until my car is smogged, checked, and registered… Life is good! It’s all apart of His plan and I’m going to exercise patience, and faith, and grow in grace knowing that “all things work together for good to those who are the called according to His purpose.”
Oh yeah, where I’ve been meditating on getting new headshots, I’ve now come across enough people to have photographers close enough and affordable enough from which to choose. Now to expand the resume! Be blessed all!

Praying for Kisses

Don’t you just hate when you need to vent about something or someone in your blog, but you can’t because involved parties are way interested in you, enough to come across your venting session and there will be egg…on someone’s face? In this case, it would be mine. …or should I say these cases… I’d been in this situation a couple times up until this week. I’ve lost count of how many times this week, alone, I’ve been ready to type something on my FB profile, or on my blog spot, that would have had me not signing onto FB, or not going out in L.A., or not going back to Cincinnati, nor to work/school without a wig, hat, and sunglasses.

On another note…I love how life is unfolding for me. Prayers have continually been answered and my sister-friend told me that it just means it’s time to fill up that list again. Some prayers are easier than others. Like when I needed a new refrigerator, a new bed, a car…I didn’t need a top of the line refrigerator, just a nice-sized one. Easy prayer…and, the bed - I was given one better than what I would have bought myself. I’ve got to treat myself better, but I never thought I’d want to sleep ALONE in a King bed. The car - I prayed for a long time for that one and I had to have faith for a long-time because that was more of a timing thing. I might not have been obedient to God if I’d gotten a new car when I wanted one. However, through the trial I remained faithful.

Some prayers are answered before you even realize it, so you have always just have to stay thankful. Some prayers are hard: all you can do is send up thoughts and ask the Holy Spirit to do the rest because what you ask for may be so little it would insult our big God, or it just may not be what you need at that time. There’s so much being done in my life that I didn’t see coming, but I’m glad my eyes, hands, and heart were open when it came…and that includes the hard lessons, too.

Stay thankful, stay obedient, and stay in prayer. Don’t forget to meditate and reflect. Love you!

IT'S FEBRUARY 3rd!

Oh my goodness, time really does fly when you're having fun! Can I even keep up? YES, by God's grace and strength. I'm starting to feel like Fall semester didn't even end...like I had a few weeks off to recuperate, and then I picked up where I left off! I already cut my job hours and I'm still strapped for time. Am I supposed to be this busy this early in the semester??? ...especially knowing that it only gets progressively more busy as we go!!! Ok, my teeth are chattering now. I'm almost ascared, but God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and peace. Never should I be afraid, (Brother Hammond) I just have to stir up the gift! And so off I go to, first, shower and shampoo. I've checked and sent emails, car shopped, gotten Jalen's final paperwork together for his college enrollment and created a file for home. It looks like the rest of the day will be rehearsing Antigone lines, printing projects to be copyrighted, and maybe I'll sneak in some shopping for camera/auditioning clothes. Have I already mentioned how much I love my Auditioning Techniques class? Actually, I'm loving all my classes: Stagecrafts, Adv Acting, Performance and Production

Until the next time I miss you so much I can't go on - toodles!