What defines you?

Since I'm asking you it's only fair that I answer, also. If someone asked me that question, I'd have to say what defines me is my loving & joyful nature...and hope that you haven't seen me when I was having, uh, you know... "one of those days". I'm having one today. While I can attribute the feelings to any one of my life's issues, I know I can still have joy "in spite of" my issues... except for one issue so gripping only drugs can bring a euphoric joy until the hormones decide to level themselves back out. "I'm starting to feel like a dungeon dragon! Rrrrah, rrrah!" If you remember or have seen "I'm Gonna Git You, Sucka" you already have a visual for how I feel right now.
My car needs work I can't afford to get because I haven't worked since February. I'm saving for the repairs & then June 16 came & I thought, "My boo-boo's 10th birthday! What a milestone...&I can't take him anywhere or do anything really fun w/him." I couldn't even get him a decent cake because I can't walk or ride my bike w/a 1/4 sheet cake & ice cream, but Super T & Pepperidge Farm came to the rescue. He seemed happy & told me the only thing that would have made it better was if I'd played Wii with him. HOW CAN YOU DENY A KID like that??? So, today I awoke deeper in my PMDD, feeling all those feelings about all my issues that I can so easily just leave with the Lord 2-3 weeks out of the month, & it hit me: forgot a car, forget my temporary feelings about temporary issues. If I or my son died today, I'd want him to have at least one toy - and not a toy that I can afford but A TOY THAT HE WANTS for his 10th birthday...and since I don't have work outside of the home, for now, we could play Wii all day if he wanted.
Having spent two-car-parts-worth on one of only three toys he asked for, while I sit here in my rocking chair & cry until my 'regular guest' comes, I can smile at the sounds of my second only-child playing by himself with his new toy, and look forward to riding my bike & walking for the next month or so. Hey I live in So Cal! Seriously, I'm happy to walk!
So, yes, loving & bringing people joy is what living this life is all about for me. I just gotta keep learning along the way, & never forget to give thanks & praise to the giver of the gifts of love & joy!
I'm Jess...an Angel