PROJECT ME

I am coming into my own more and more every year. I'm getting to know me better and seeing where I shine, but more importantly seeing where I can make improvements. Actually, what's more important is that I act on what I see needs to be done. Stewing is worse than doing and right now this soup is scorched. I need to water done my life with some me time. Not me interacting with friends, but just me. I need to actively invest in myself like I used to do before I started giving me to the world in a way I would get little returns.

Frighteningly, this is causing me to go beyond accepting my truths into being so unashamed of the ugliness that I state and claim them boldly. That's the only way I can make the changes that will improve ME. I need to be selfish. I recently lost close contact with someone I valued deeply because of this selfishness and it hurts that she didn't see her own selfishness in wanting something from me I was unable to give at that time. Now I see that I can't value someone who won't allow me that freedom. If I'd been let go I was going to return, but because she didn't want to let me go, even though I came back the door wasn't open. I, out of love for my friend can appreciate that, but I now, out of love for myself accept that maybe, as beautiful as that friendship is, it must not be the kind of friendship I need right now. We are divinely given what we need at the specific moment that we need it whether we believe it or not. I accept that so that I can appreciate this journey and it's struggles that much more. It allows me to celebrate in spite of trouble. When I look at it life that I remember that I can still thrive through adversity.

I can rise above depression. I can use ADHD in my arts. I can beat anxiety and obsessive compulsive disorder. Dyslexia allows me to improve my communication and understanding. I'm triumphing over the tragedies in my life as I rise. I'm learning to accept all about me and caring less about the people who can't in this world. Because I accept me, so does the world. Those who don't accept me don't matter in my world and those who love me will encourage me throughout my continued evolution.

I'm getting back to daily morning meditation and studying.

I'm getting back to morning walks and working out regularly.

I'm getting back to reading.

I'm getting back to regular writing.

I'm giving myself deadlines for my goals.

I'm getting back to me.

Thank you, Creator, for reinstating in my mind who and what you created me to be and do. Nothing else matters but what you've already lined up for me and I thank you for every pitfall, obstacle, valley, hill, disappointment and denial that is leading me to higher heights, the ladders to climb to them, pulleys that lifts me, the endurance and stamina to keep going, rest by the river of Living Water to quench my eternal thirst as I head towards that peak.