Full of It

Arrogance isn't the only we can be defined when we're full of ourselves. That, even though a false sense, is still at least a sense of confidence. Sometimes we're so full of ourselves we can't even see outside ourselves...and our own issues. It's also called selfishness, but this kind is usually symptomatic of the person that would give you anything because they love you. Wow...therapy paid off because I recognize that as co-dependency. People are so 'ascared' of therapy and counseling. You just don't know how much you can learn. Not only can you spot things in and repair yourself, but you can spot them in others and protect yourself...and when you've done all YOU can, you just stand.
I love the saying "you are as sick as your secrets." It's one thing to remain private; it's another to omit information out of fear of judgment. It ends up coming back on you in some form, but you're so caught up in your feelings you don't even realize that you put it out there in the beginning. What's even worse is you get mad, lash out, or don't want to talk about it if you're called on it.
I just love how since I began a new journey God has brought me up close and personal with people who undeniably possess the very traits that used to keep me from propelling to the heights for which I am destined. What's greater is I recognize them, acknowledge it in myself, and become even more aware when I repeat those self-sabotaging behaviors. To whom much is given, much is required. Greatness and success is scary and I have held myself back long enough.
It's time to ride into the Son Rise and reclaim what the devil has tried to steal...I just wish I could take more people with me.

Another chapter or two done. Time to start a new one.